anatomy of an ending (draft)

picture a room full
of half-full cardboard boxes
such that you can tell neither
who’s coming
or going –

the afternoon,
following the last show,
it rained and rained
She felt lonely
oh you know the cliche
but it was like a friend moved to another state

“I’m going to be depressed for a week,” she said
to the mirror
to her mother
to her coffee cup

“We can talk optimistically
or we can look at data, at numbers,”
he says to her,
as he removes his glasses.

“I’ve never been good with statistics. I prefer
optimism. You know, there’s always a prayer.”

“I’ve been listening to you for three months now.
Read the text. Look at the facts. It takes two people
to repair a relationship.”

Still, she can’t voice the D-word. Not there.
She says it to her friends
            to her steering wheel
            to her sister.

Writers, maybe especially young writers, seek a perfect ending.
“Don’t make it feel tacked-on,” says the writing coach.
We all want the Fitzgerald finish,
the Joycean moment.
So that, dear reader, you will sigh and languish over our choice
words. Like a lingering touch or a parting too-long-glance.
So we struggle. Make it short? Make it long? Sermonize?
Ask a question? Do something completely unexpected? Make room
for a sequel?
But you, dear reader, can smell a gimmick a mile away. You know us.
You cannot be fooled.
It takes two to participate in the ending.

And so I love you, you weird old Brahmin-type
“There, I’ve said it,” she said
        to the air
        to her pillow
        to no ears in particular


~ by hannahcsykes on July 2, 2008.

One Response to “anatomy of an ending (draft)”

  1. wow.. this is powerful and beautiful and emotional . it’s one of those things i read and am just blown away.

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